Bliss? Do we get to go all the way to bliss? BM "D" goes to the dr. this week to have a check on the status of the baby and if he was able to turn. If not, she will most likely have a scheduled C-section in which we will start to make travel plans. It's getting closer and closer. We told Cole this last weekend and he was so excited! He has wanted to name every baby Joey, (my sister recently had a baby and he desperately wanted to name it Joey), and now he wants to name this baby Joey!
YES! The answer to painting over your emotions is YES! You can! It felt so good as I watched the pink disappear and the emotions from our last failed adoption disappear. And as the new green went up, excitement also started to rise up. It looks like a baby's room! I dug out the baby boxes in the basement, and have worked on an idea for a border. Started thinking about names, and washed the few clothes that I'd found. I've wandered around aimlessly in the baby section of many stores and started to look for a cross-stitch to put on the wall of a neat adoption quote I found......"born not of our flesh, but born in our hearts, you were wanted and hoped for and loved from the start." I've read and saved all the emails from the lawyer about 60 times. And each time I go from excitement to questions to fear and panic.
What will we feel? What will we say to the birthmother and birthfather when we meet them? What will they say to us? What we will name this baby? Will the baby be healthy? How will she feel? Will the adoption go smoothly? Will our homestudy EVER make it to the lawyer? Will we have all of our paperwork complete? Will all emotions be out of control? Will our son be able to handle it? Will we? Do we have what we need? Will be able to make it to Florida without our nerves going crazy? How long will we be there?
Two weeks to go....................................
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