Lucky charms.....or just Lucky?

We are down to four weeks. I can't believe it is so close. I feel tight and tense and worried about so many things. It's funny the places your mind can take you! Staying tight lipped about the news for a while was definitely a good thing for me. At least I can try to function as normally as possible as my emotions and mind seem to be in a constant spiral motion. So I got an update today as BM went to the dr. and told the doula she is placing this baby for adoption and really wants the first people to hold the baby the adoptive family! Really? There seem to be little pieces of new information along the way that reaffirm that this is really happening, and this is the right situation for us. I pray every day that the baby is healthy. So we will have to make travel plans and try to get things ready. I still haven't painted that room yet! The baby is breach, and if she wants us there before the birth, and he stays breach, that will make it that much easier for us to plan to get there on time. My son was breach, and I was thinking about how ironic that connection is. And then, for some weird reason, I started eating Lucky Charms. I have eaten a bowl a day for three days in a row. They are delicious! And it hit me.......I haven't eaten Lucky Charms since I was pregnant with Cole. What is the coincidence in that? And NOW of all times, I'm craving Lucky Charms????? And what's even funnier is that I gained so much weight with Cole, and I went through boxes of Lucky Charms. After I had him, I don't think I've eaten a bowl of Lucky Charms since......until now. They're magically delicious.....or maybe they're just magic!